The Sorrow of Goodbye

Hello fans, and friends, and friendly fans. I have been a bit derailed in writing in general lately- no blog posts, no progress on my next book which is now far late of the proposed February 15th release. The progress on the book being delayed was expected, but the lack of any communication by blog or social media was not anticipated.

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Just a few weeks apart I faced the death of not one, but two grandparents. I loved them both dearly, but the death of my mother’s father was especially painful as we hadn’t had much time to anticipate this happening and because he raised me as much as my parents did.

And this hard time I’ve taken some time off of work to spend time with friends, and loved ones. And reading. So much reading. One of the greatest ways to give ourselves a little distance and clarity when grieving is to drown ourselves in the world of fiction. So I spent a few nights ordering Thai takeout and binge watching movies. I did some shopping and bought over a hundred used dvds- normally I avoid retail therapy but this felt so right. I ate a lot of desserts, and I didn’t care that I have a lot of food sensitivities that stress my body out and ate just about everything regardless. I went on some long nature walks.

I did everything I could to bury my emotions, and then I switched to facing them head on.

I wrote some poetry that I’ll probably never publish. I drew. I tried to play the harmonica like my Papa (grandpa) did. I sat and stared out of windows and just let myself think a lot.

I’m glad this job gives me the flexibility to take things easy when I really must. I’m glad to see you are still willing to visit my site after a month long dry period. And I’m glad that I feel better now and am ready to get back to work writing. I know it’s what both of my grandpas would have wanted.

 

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Holidays in Many Ways

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Today was the office holiday party. It was a bizarre experience- I’ve taken on a great job working with books all day. I actually really like the job. It’s a very decent and human place to work with total understanding of needs to take time off (unlike every retail job ever), I can be as social or unsocial as I like, and did I mention they have holiday parties? I don’t mean like the kind of awkward parties some offices have where all the junior staff are expected to cough up the money for everything, but instead it was a nice real party where I could just show up and enjoy myself.

Not that I’m saying my previous jobs have been awful. Just that I really like this job and there’s a lot of actually nice and friendly people who work there.

But as tempting as the wonderful comfort of a great job with a great work atmosphere is, I still am working towards being a full time writer supported fully by my work. I’m enjoying my work, and enjoying the holidays. I’m just still determined to not allow myself to enjoy this forever.

I don’t particularly know why I shared this post with you. I want you guys to know that I’m still writing, and I’m working towards writing even more, but I’m not writing as fast as I’d like right now because I also have a pay-the-bills job on my plate. Which I suppose makes me the same as 80% of all authors. So maybe I won’t post on the blog every day from now on and focus on spending more of my writing time writing books.

But in the meantime, no matter what kind of writing I’m doing, I’m also enjoying Christmas, and I hope you enjoy whatever holiday you celebrate.